State Of The Heart

Today I don't want to smile,
I'm sick and tired of trying.
I can no longer look
Because of my heart crying.

Even in the icy silence
You can hear it rip at the seam,
And while it hurts to keep inside,
I've lost the sense to scream.

The life in my eyes dripped slowly,
Coldly down my face.
Each one left the skin behind,
Burning a mark with careful grace.

I attempt to pick the pieces up
Without inflicting wounds onto my skin,
But I bleed because they're jagged.
My hands are only so weak and thin.

This sensation has made a mark,
I'm numb of the thoughts in my head.
One kiss goodbye,
And maybe I'm better off dead.

As I sink into a sea of insanity
Sedated and no sense of control,
With nothing to hold on to,
The waves begin to capture my soul.

So the end has nothing left to see,
A fantasy too beautiful is gone.
My heart's desire shall stay the same,
But now there's no hope to lean on.