Horribly Unbearable Dream

I stumble blindly on my path
Wondering where to go
I pray something will let me out
Of this prison in the snow

Where will I find purity
Where is my river bend?
I really want to know
Is my life about to end?

I lost my love
I lost my friends
I lost everything dear to me
As my candle flickers out
Is there any meaning?

Pull me into a river
Drown me with a rock
Stomp on me till I give up
I don't want to come out as a shock
Thankfully I wake up
From a horribly unbearable dream
For in my heart, it beats so fast
I'm so scared I want to scream
Where am I, how did I get here?
Where am I today?
How did I get this far?
Mommy, don't you want to play?
Daddy, let's go to the park
Bro, let's camp outside
Sis, show me how to whistle?
What went wrong in my life?
As this nightmare lifts, I sigh with relief
It was all just a scary dream
I close my eyes and tell myself
"It's okay, stay in one piece"

"Never let the world
Make you waste away
You still have the choice to save yourself
Just get through this one day"

Is that just my head... or is it the true dream
I don't know...nothing's ever what it seems.