Confusion

I sit here
With a tear in my eye
Really
I don't know why

Why am I depressed
Why am I sad
Why am I upset
Why am I mad

So many
Feelings going through my mind
And all
At just one time

I'm so confused
And I don't know what to do
I feel like crying
And like telling everyone to shoo

I should be happy
I should have a smile
I don't know
Why I feel so vile

I want to cry
And I don't want to deal
With this confusion
That i know feel

Why aren't I happy
When I know I should be
But I'm not
And I just want to flee

But I'm not
Going to flee
Because i know
That is just not me

But now
I'm gonna sit
And write about anything and everything
And every little bit

I fell so confused
I don't know why
I feel like this
And I'm not gonna lie

And with this
I
End my poem
And for now say good bye