Everything was sup post to be great.
i thought i finally made my mind up
but it turned out that now its just hate.
i really thought things would work out.
now i dint really hear from you not
even a little shout.
i dint know what i did to make you
so mad with me
i couldn\'t help it that i wasn\'t happy as
can be.
we were always yelling and fighting too.
no one ever talked to me...not even you.
it caused me a lot of pain.
that I\'m still going through.
because now i have depression.
lord what did i do?
all i wanted was to be happy.
considering i didn\'t know my mom
i thought i would be lucky
to get a chance to live with the love of my life.
everything is screwed up now so i guess I\'ll take this knife.
run it down my hand and on to my wrist too.
it can\'t be any worse than what I\'m going through.
i can\'t believe this happened to me
i thought I\'ve been through enough.
having divorced parents is already tough enough.
let alone going through what i am.
i thought that you would be happy as long as i am.
well i really guess not.
its not like its worth crying over.
you just another person
i mean you my frickin mother.
i dint get why you wont let this be easy for me...oh wait nothing can
my mistake i must have been selfish. yeah i really think this is all a bunch of immature stuff we\'re dealing with here. i mean let\'s start when i was down there.
we always fought and never talked.
and when we did it was always not much of anything that always turned into a fight. i guess i rather not know you that well than be like this with you now. its glad to know that my own mother hates me. and the simple fact that she wont even talk to me. its Kay i guess it doesn\'t matter why would it if I\'m just another
problem in Ur life.
i mean Ur far to busy to be spending time with me. you have three other daughters what makes me any different? sis is pregnant she needs to more than i do....Halynn is growing up so fast she needs you more than i do ...and yet I\'m just the 13 year old that lives 8 states away from here ONLY mother in the world. the only one that would care for her and call her-her \"Little Girl\" but now i guess I\'m screwed over but thats okay i mean thats my life i guess there are other people who go through more than i do. i just hope you understand that i still love you.
and i wont even stop. i just wish all the kids that have moms and treat them bad know what i\'m going through and how sad. it makes u feel when u dont have her around i guess that my fault for being me. and having my life well i cant help it some kids are just born with all the
luck. oh well i still love her wether she loves me or not. i love you mom and with EVERY SINGLE PIECE OF MY HEART�
