Your eyes open at last,
It felt like it took forever,
Your mouth opens to speak,
Though for you it sounds like such an endeavor,
I hope to hear sweet nothings,
Yet all I hear is pain,
The pain in my chest as you tell me,
I'm the cause of all your strain,
Suddenly you're gone,
And I'm left staring into space,
Shaking from head to toe,
As tears stream down my face,
I attempt to gain composure,
I can't let anyone see,
The pain on my face I cover,
To shield my heart within me,
Hearing you don't want to see me,
Yet still you say I'm the one you love?
How can this be?
When you say you're busy with "stuff",
When you're angry you say what you mean,
Despite feelings getting crushed,
Last night you told me your feelings,
Yet mine seemed to be hushed,
Hours later you apologized,
That doesn't erase the hurt,
I apologized straight away,
Yet still your words were curt,
If only I could believe that you were really sorry,
That you didn't mean the words you said,
That you weren't just looking for sympathy,
While you lay in pain in bed,
Why can't I forgive you?
Its just hurts to feel this way,
To be needing you to make an effort,
Yet instead you sit and play,
I've never been so hurt by you,
That I couldn't see the light,
Even when you betrayed my trust,
We still made it through the night,
Right now I couldn't handle seeing you,
I couldn't hug you like the norm,
Still I wish you were with me,
So I could feel your arms surround my form,
I WISH I COULD FORGIVE YOU,
I WISH I COULD DO THE SAME,
I WANT YOU TO KNOW HOW I FELT LAST NIGHT,
AS I CRIED TO SLEEP IN PAIN.
