Trapped In a World Of Lies

A calloused hand reaches in and grabs my beating heart
Pounding more and more with every passing second
The blood drips off of his elbow, onto the cold floor
Streaming down the beholders forearm
He squeezes it tighter, grasps it with a deadly grip
Laughs as he slowly suffocates my heart.
My sobs are muffled behind the blindfold
My screams are silenced behind the gag
My hands are trembling in the rope tied behind my back
My legs are squirming in the duct tape he has put over my legs
I can't move, I can't talk, I can't cry, and I can't scream
There is nothing left for me to do, but sit and wait
Ponder in all of the loneliness coming over me
About all the faces of the past
Black and white photographs rusting with time
I can hear the ticks as the death clock tolls
I can feel the pain pushing through me
My blood leaks out of the hole
Stitches sewn to cover the mess
Thoughts gnawing away at my mind
As memories and regrets play inside like a mixed tape
If I could do it all over again, I would not be here now
I would have told you from the start, not waited until now
But now I am in over my head, consumed within lies
Lies of you, lies of me, lies of us, and lies of who we will be
The guilt hangs over me, taunting me every day
The secrets I keep from you, the secrets I have sworn not to tell
Chisel the chunks of ice from my veins
As the crimson falls within the ice
Frozen in time as my thoughts over come me
And the clock stops ticking
And I realize that I have trapped myself in a world lies
And there is no way out of it now
The silver smoke streams silently through me
As I choke and cough up the lies
You look at me with steel blue eyes, tears embedded within
You don't know what to do, you never thought this day would come
So much faith in someone so betraying
I twist and turn my wrists as the rope burns my flesh
I am the only one moving, only one breathing
My lies will be the beginning, my sins will be the climax
My regrets will be the falling, and my mistakes will be end.
As my mouth opens, the tears stream down
Revealing every thing I have done to wrong you
But there is nothing that I can do about it now,
Nothing but wait and hope
As the clock continues to tick
And the world continues to spin.

© Jenna Elphick
March 21, 2006