Expression of a Lost Soul

Inside i am so confused, so lost in this tragic torment that keeps me bound to the one person i love most.

At this point i feel like I'm at the edge of life and not sure where to turn.

Should i run away and hide behind the sadness and act like everything's ok?

Iv told myself time and time again it would be ok but each day it seems there is no way.

I don't feel obsessed and I don't feel attached, the better word i have is in love and being in love it isn't fair to feel apart from that one person I love.

It isn't fair to have to wait for her once again.

For the person who cured my depression at one time.

And now I'm waiting in torment and paranoia for her, hoping that it isn't over with forever.

She told me she still wants us back together, She told me she still loves me.

But with those words comes the tone of voice.

The actions I see with her and another person.

Her friends are guys so its too difficult to tell.

I only wish I could shrug it all off because i know she loves me as well.