What about a girl like me

None will touch a girl like m e
someone with troubles and scares
a girl suffering depression
so mixed up inside

through life's greatest struggles
shes now silent and scared
disguising her hideous body
behind the thickest doors

boys come and go
but never do they see
the girl inside wanting to reach out
hoping they will choose me

but they never do
because i don't have flawless skin
or pretty toned , tanned body
my identity is struggling

my voice inside is drowned
my heart in pieces
stabbing at my chest
leaving me bleeding deep within

i want so much to be in love
have someone to cuddle
someone to call my own
a boy that can see me for who i am

but as the years go by
my wish i had is being erased
and the boys around me are oblivious
they don't even notice me

so depression gets worse
and the scares re-open and grow
my head filled with voices
a psychotic girl all alone

letting someone in
involves realizing its all real
and i don't think i can do that
my fragile soul already burns dim

all male figures Ive ever known
have killed my spirit
and destroyed all self confidence
what am i to do

if theres no chance of love
than maybe i should just end all pain
for I'm left alone
excluded from the race

just once, only once i ask
can it be me
that finds that one
that one that chooses me

a boy who can look me deep in the eye
still see my flaws
and want me for all i am
treat me like the way my dad never did