From the day I met you, you fill my heart with gold
And then I gave you my heart and hope you can hold
Every moment with you, seem precious than everything be
Now I could trust and give you anything from me
I still remember the day we were together,
And how we said "Love you and love forever".
And remember in the some scary ride.
You were sitting next to me, on my left side.
You said, You'll never go on it, but with me you will.
Then soon our eyes met, looking to each other, very still.
Then the ride started to move and interrupts,
You grasp "Oh god..." and our screaming erupts.
You make me so happy that I suddenly burst to tears
With you beside me, there's nothing I fear.
Every promise we made and still now I assure,
Nothing could break it because there's no cure.
Until I received a letter there's love no more.
You speared through my heart and now it sores.
Now it's a scar there, which symbolises our memories.
Pain and diseased, it seems like some love-breaking stories.
Though, the promise you broke but I still kept,
And now you with someone else, but I have to accept.
It seems so easy for you to move on,
But for me these harsh thoughts will never be gone.
And remember when I was trying to die,
You wouldn't say three simple words or a goodbye.
You make me so angry, even hatred grew for you
But a mixture of love and this?! I have no clue.
I started having dreams for you and those dreams are nightmares.
But I still wonder and hope that you still care.
You know.. it's hard for me to even talk to you
Even if I try, some of my anger are released a few
This love and hatred for you makes me ill.
And seeing you with someone else; really kills.
Maybe god playing tricks on my fate
Because everything now is "too late.."
Releasing it... This week could be our 2nd anniversary,
Why bother knowing since it'll cause so many controversies.
So much things happening when you weren't there,
I sometime yell and cry that life is so not fair.
But now I know, we were young and so
And other things are there for me which keeps my life flow.
I guess.. I have to wait and be patient until my perfect appears
and that when I cry, for sure those are happy tears.
