Why??
Why me??
Why did they choose me for this life??
I used to have to cry myself to sleep
Couldn't fend for myself
The sound of arguing 24/7
It was my mummy and daddy
Always my fault
A real daddies girl
My fault they split
Went their separate ways
Never said sorry
Never will
It's too late now
My dad got fed up
He left me
He left my love
He left my world
Without a last goodbye
A last kiss
A last smile
He just went
I thought that was it
Life was at its lowest
Nothing else would happen
Until my brother got drunk
Started smashing up the house
And everything in it
Even his fiancee
Even my mum
Even me
I couldn't face it
I shed so many tears
I couldn't cry any more
I had to carry on
I had to move on
I did
I found true love
We held hands
We hugged
We kissed
We had fun
Even that is going away
We seem to be drifting apart
And now the truth
Only now do i know
My daddy weren't so great
He was a criminal
On 18 months probation
Not the first time
The only reason why i have my mummy
Was because my daddy went
I would be in a care home now
With total strangers
Scared to never see my true family again
Never know where i truely belong
Never be held in my mummies arms
But now
What's left to live for?
Nothing
Just unfriendly faces
Friends who no longer like me
Call me everything behind my back
Boyfriends who say they love me
Then they just leave
Strangers who threaten me
Break into my house
My car
Who shout abuse at me?
No thanks
I'd rather take the easy option
Sorry
For anything I've ever done wrong
For anything I've ever said
Even for just being me
Always remember
If I've said I love you
I've meant it
My greatest love to them few people
Please don't cry
It's better this way
I'll feel less pain
Less hatred
Less worry
Just promise me
Remember me for the good things
The laughs we had
The tears we shared
And always remember
Even though I'm not beside you
You'll always be in my heart
See you in heaven soon
Goodbye
xxxxxxx
Hold on
Wait
Why should i??
Why should i let go of the good things??
By best mate beckie
My education
My current boyfriend
I wont
I wont give up
I wont give in to temptation
I've already punched the wall
Give myself burns from the oven
Give myself friction burns
Used my nails
My keys
And slit my wrists
But now i wont
I'm stronger than that
Got my whole life ahead
I'm going to live it to the full
Live it like i'm the only person alive
Like i dont care about anybody else
I'm never going to say goodbye
I will live forever
I will be queen
I will get what i want
Who i want
When i want them
Ha!!
I'm me!!
No-one will stop me
I will be the worlds greatest
I love life
I love everybody in my life
See you all soon
In school and work and evrything else
But just not heaven, hell or things like that
Yipee
I'm me again
:)
