Waiting For You

No matter where I go, no matter what I do
All that ever runs through my aching mind is you
My head is overflowing with thoughts of you, not ever leaving
I lay on my bed in the dark, silently weeping
My sobs are muffles into my pillow, my screams are silenced by the tears
The razor blade beside me, guiding me through all of my fears
as I paint on my face every morning, all that I see in the mirror is your sweet face
I have tried getting over you, but I have lost my place
Whenever the wind howls, I hear your voice whispering in my ears
My heart still breaks for you after all of these years
I talk to you every night, but never gain the courage up to tell you
that I am still not over you, our relationship is not through
you will always have a place in my heart
you've known this from the start
but you made the decision that day, it was not me
you're the one that decided to flee
your love for another girl is what ended it all
you never told me, you continued to let me fall
it was all a game to you, you didn't care
I was just a pawn in this dare
You used me to get to her, and now there is nothing left for me to do
But sit here and wait for you

© Jenna Elphick
March 22, 2006