Love you enough to let go

Me and my mom got in another fight
this time I don't see how things will ever be alright
I can't take living this way anymore
I keep picturing running for the door
I can't find a way out
no one hears the screams and shouts
Theres only one thing I can do
but I don't want to hurt you
I pulled the scissors fron there hiding place
as I looked at them I saw the reflection of my face
I hate myself and everything I do
the only thing I don't hate, is loving you
so as I start to cut, I stop and picture your smile, your eyes.
you don't deserve this, all the lies
the pretend life I make up in my head
that cause the tears to come at night when I'm in bed
then I continue what I started
because you deserve better, not to be broken hearted
your life would be better without me
everyone's will, and soon you will see
I can't put you through all this,
I love you too much
so I need to set you free
make you stop loving me
I start to cut harder knowing this isn't how life is suppose to be
all I wanted was to be happy......be me
this is the hardest thing in the world and I hope you know
but I love you enough that I HAVE to let you go.