Im totally lost

I'm totally lost
nothing feels right
every things gone
even my life

i gave no reason
to live this life
it isn't even worth the strife

i cry for him
he doesn't see
everything he's done to me

he is what makes me feel this way
they're just adding to the pain
by what they do and say each day
why do they treat me this way

i cut my wrists and slowly bleed
but still my bible i do read
i believe that i am loved by him
but still my feelings never end

these thoughts of dieing of leaving
them
of leaving my pain and misery

of leaving behind whats on my mind
and never feel lonely again
i need them to understand
that i cant take it any more

i cant take being without him
and not being loved
i can no longer deal with
what i have done

things are just slipping
out of my grasp
i cant leave the things
back in the past

i love him still
and cry by myself
i fake my smile my laugh
my everything

just to keep him happy
even if it means me
feeling totally crappy
and being totally lost

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