Confused

You say you love me
but do u really

you leave for days at a time
and come back only to lie

why does it seem as though
you are cheating
although I know you arent

I hate the fact that she gets to see you more then me
this shouldnt be

I have best friends too
but I dont leave to be with them over you

the other day I was looking at suicide as me way out
but shit why would I give you the benefit of the doubt

if I never said I loved you
would you of ever said it to me

I wish you could see
how much you really mean to me...