When I first lost him, I cried
When he told me he wanted to die, I nearly took my own life.
When we first kissed, I smiled so much
When he left again to go to war, I felt my heart pulling apart
When I got phone calls late at night, I feel asleep with sweet dreams.
When we lost the chance at having a baby, I screamed
When he calmed me I knew I wanted no other
And when he hurt me I cried like no other
When the trust between us was broken I left him again
When he apologized for being unfaithful, I barely listened
When he begged for me back I didn't shed a tear
When he stood on the 3 story ledge ready to die because I wouldn't forgive him, I told him not to jump because I knew that I still loved him
When I took off his senior ring and put it away I still thought about my life without him
When my Ex called, I nearly cheated on him
When we talked and I wanted to be out of his life, I heard the hurt in his voice and realized the hurt in mine if I said the words to banish him
When the silence came between us, neither of us wanted to give in
When he spoke first telling me he loved me I didn't say it back to him
When he asked me to be his forever I didn't answer him.
When I laid in bed crying, I knew I would never be able to stop loving him.
But when I lost him again and we were brought back together I told him I love him with all my heart
This time I wasn't afraid.
