Deceit

I just wish I knew

That I know exactly what to do

Nothing in my life is going right

Not even on this special night

Knowing how I feel is so complicated

Just knowing about all the lies just now is hard to deal with

I just wish I didn't know about them

I always thought that my family loved me back

I don't want to be like this

All the deceit is just to much for me at this time in my life

Knowing all you though you knew come undone in front of you

I didn't want to believe all their words were lacking honesty

Guessing who you really are in life isn't all that easy

Trying to fit in is enough to deal with but knowing your family never cared is even harder to deal with

When I thought I had the best family I soon found out I was wrong

Not knowing about all the lies in your family is enough to know about

The deceit lingers in this house

I just can't get away from any of it

I just wanted honesty and it was the one thing I couldn't have instead all I got was deceit