I'm sitting here
The snow all around,
I don't feel cold, or sad, mad, or happy
I don't feel
This morning I cried, I cried my heart into my tears and watched as it floated off into the sunset
Somehow I knew this would happen
Somehow I anticipated this
Somehow I knew
I still will sit here every day, as I have so many times
I will go about the same way,
But this wall, has gotten a little bit higher, thicker, stronger.
No one but you has ever gotten past it, and you are the only one that will
I continue routine, follow my brain for my hearts gone away
I do what I think I have to do, what others expect of me
No longer do I worry about what I want
After this, I am just a vessel
For hatred, fear and comfort.
I am who I have to be,
No matter what others do, I have to do what I'm asked to do
No longer do I choose, but am chosen for...
It is my own fault
I knew
I know
I will continue to hold onto this knowledge forever
But just one thing,
This routine of mine will never change, not even for you
Just has you've locked me out so shall you be locked out
What you knew was a lie anyways ... so what does it matter ....
I'm just sitting here
