Did you really Love Me??

It had never occured to me that what i had done,
would have brought such horror to my only loved one,
I looked through my photos to only remember,
that you had just been murdered last december,
It was my fault im sorry,i regret it..i know,
but there was a reason...and that i will show,
you lied to my father;you said i wasnt your son,
you thought you would get away with it and everything was undone,
But no mommy that\'s not all of it yet..,
you still have a few more things to regret,
Your time is now up...u have no more spare time,
You might have to make it up to me...some other time,
Your by my side now mommy...dont be scared,
every moment of our lives will now be shared,
Your in the backyard mommy..and nobody knows it,
everybody just thinks that u died from a fit,
I had to lie...cos everybody would hate me,
You always blamed daddy and said it was he..,
that killed my pet dog,my 2 goldfish and...,
who made that terrible scar on my hand,
Now dont bother to say your sorry...
i will mommy....im sorry
but really....
DID YOU LOVE ME???