Everyday I wake up I
wish to die, all the time
trying to commit suicide,
thinking of how everyones
life would be if I left and
died, my boyfriend broke
up with me which made
me cry hoping to one day
figure out why, he said
he never once loved me,
that it was all just a lie,
now I cry every night
and day wishing to die
because all I ever wanted
in life was to be loved in
another mans eyes now
I'm trying to figure out why everyone wants me to die,
I hope one day that I'll
wake up from this nightmare realizing it was all just a lie,
when I was born my father
said he hoped I'd die
because I was the ugliest
thing in life, now I'm
wishing to die because
as you can see nobody
loves me for me, when
I was about three I was
raped by guys over thirty,
I didn't know right from wrong
so I thought it was OK they
did what they did to me, now
that I'm 15 iv come to realize
that this was not a dream,
this all really happened to me,
why did god make me if he
knew this was gonna be, as
you can see he truly isn't
what he seems to be, isn't he suppose to make everyone
happy? well I guess everyone
is but me, now you can
see my life is in misery,
I'm trying to forget what
happened to me but once
your told time and time
again your not pretty you
come to realize everything
was meant to be, my friends
tell me they dint want me
to leave, but if you were me
you would want to end life's misery, so tell me would
you want to be in
misery or harmony?
I would want to be in
harmony because iv
been through so much,
shedding many tears
throughout these long
lost thirteen years of
many horrifying fears,
I fear of being near and far,
I'm afraid that everything
that happened to me
by those men is gonna
happen again but
this time more
dangerously, so please
let me be free
resting in life's harmony. .
