Three years ago i met this really unique guy we became extremely good friends then it became more. i i feel in love with him we hung out for years until he met his ex so it was time for me to move on so i started dating this guy i was So head over heals with him he was my everything then i made the mistake of going back to the old love and my new love found out we work things out but he held a grief so he left well i felt so lonely and like i had nothing left i was missing two people at once how is that? how can you love two people? i dont know but i did then ya know i stooped thinking bout my first b/c i figured out that our whole past was just a lie and all but then when i finally stooped thinking of him he was there he was right there in front of me it changed everything ya know how when you were little you had a toy you would play with forever and that was your favorite toy that you dont want to lose or stop playing with then one day you find a new favorite toy and you play with it and totally forget about the other one until lose that one and some how right when you lose that one the old one shows up well thats kind of how this felt so now this person who i REALLY care about has come back into my life but Ive opened my eyes and realized he doesn't want me hes just using me which breaks my heart more and more everyday but i cant stop it b/c i know that makes him happy and all i want to do is make him happy and want SO much more from him so now three years after meeting this unique great person hes still here and the whole purpose of this is just to say not only to say thank you to this person for not leaving me for forever and I'm hoping just maybe MAYBE it'll make him open up too? you know who you are so heres my real question how do you feel about me is it still the same as before do you still hate me and think I'm annoying? if so ya know its not all my fault maybe you should realize the way you make me feel ??? i hope if you do read this it doesn't push you away any more
