Im Sorry For Being There

Im sorry for how I've acted lately just because you wont date me but take a look at this trough my eyes and you'll know why I cry...I Know right know that your confused but I really don't know why, I feel like I'm taking second place in an endless race, I don't want him to be able to cheat you ever again and have and come to me and be happy knowing I can make you feel that way, I really do feel used, you cuddle me and hold my hand...Even When he's your man? I feel like a substitution for him, and maybe what your feeling isn't for me its for who you wish I could be. He drinks, He smokes,He plays around. So I'm sorry for all I have shown you is love and I'm sorry I have never hurt you and promise I never will Im sorry Im sorry that I fight for something that could be real. Im not going to say I love you and that he could never love you how I do even tho I know its true I woke up this morning feeling happy because I was thinking of you, But then I grew sad and even a little mad, because I think of you.... With him instead of me. I cant do anything anymore without thinking of you and crying. I sometimes feel like lieing and saying I don't like you not one little bit, but that would make me full of shnit because Alex I do believe I'm better then him at least for you anyway. Every time we talk about him your mad or sad or a little upset lets count the times I was there to cheer you up 1, 2,3 and so on and so forth I will never ignore you under any circumstance especially for a game All you need to do...Alex Please I need a glance or maybe u full picture of what its like to be dating my true love, a gift sent to me from up above one that I could never not love, Alex I don't know how much more my heart can take, or how many more tears can be shed you've made your choice and left my voice unheard, But can I leave you with a reason to write me back?...Is Tyler the real deal?.....ALL NAMES HAVE BEEN CHANGED