An untitled life full of unintentional mistakes
I never wanted this life, but I guess I got it anyway
Somehow, there seems to be a barrier now
A barrier that seems impossible to cross
I never believed that I could be strong,
And yet so frail, but here I am
Knowing that itâ??s true
I put on a smile everyday
Greet my friends with a smile
And joke as if life was a breeze
If that' considered strong,
Then maybe I'm brave, strong,
The girl who can handle every small little thing
But what if the smile was fake
And it carried pain that no one else
Seemed to see
What if my friends weren't true
And they are just there to say hello
'Cause I'm funny and happy,
And it's just basic courtesy
To reply to a hello
What if my joke could make you laugh
But there's no twinkle in my eyes, no life in my laugh
It seems the joke had been said a thousand times,
The same way, the same kind
Maybe now you know
How hard it is
To carry a secret and never let on
I just never believed life could be so harsh
But now that there's nothing I can do
To make anything change,
I guess I'll just do what I do-
Put on a mask, pretend I'm fine, laugh like life was a melody, and smile as if I was free.
Though I'm bound and gagged by a secret, hurt and broken and never healed, I just got to carry on my pretence
