I Hate...

I hate this!
I hate you!
Why am I
Such a fool?

No amount of words
Could ever explain
So much stuff has happened
That I am no longer sane.

I'm still trapped,
But still somewhat free.
How is that possible?
Will someone explain it to me?

I saw your face today.
That scared the hell out of me.
I swore up and down
That I was free, you see.

I was just driving home from work,
I blinked, and there you were.
You weren't really there,
And this lingering pain, I must endure.

I thought this was over!
Why are you still here?
Why must you keep causing
This relentless fear?

I thought you were gone!
I hate that you not!
I hate that I loved you
And you left me here to rot!

I hate that I can't hate.
I hate that I'm second rate.
I hate how you don't love back.
I hate that it's you I lack.

I hate I'm not good enough for you.
I hate that you left me in the cold.
I hate that you hurt me,
I hate there were so many things untold.

I hate that I'm still saying this
After all this time.
I hate this so much,
I no longer have a rhyme.