Mom
I know you were young
You did what you thought was right for me
You had school, I had Grandma
But school was over sometime
Why don't have I have memories of you
I do remember your wedding day
But it wasn't the man i knew as Daddy
You were running late that day...LOL
But you were very pretty
It was an outside wedding
I already had a baby sister
Although I don't remember growing up with her
After the day you were married
My memories are very slim to none
What I remember the most is that when you left
It was me that came to you
Me that called to talk to my mom
I know that you love me
Thats what you tell me anyways
But you weren't there for my maturing years
Not there when I needed you
Do you know how hard it is to talk to a man
About boyfriends, periods, that kind of thing?
It was very interesting
But daddy did try
And he always told me that you loved me
And yes I do think of the man
You married as Dad
When I see him I call him daddy...too
I love you AND him
But now that I am grown up
I understand more why grandma raised me
Sometimes I still feel like you don't want me
But thats partly my fault too
I pushed you away for a time
And I'm sorry for that
Now I give up, Ill let life take it's course
And learn from it's lessons
I hope someday that we can be close
Please forgive me for all my mistakes
The ones have made and will make
As I forgive you for yours
I now understand why I am were I am
I understand why it is that way it is
Thank you for trying to give a better life
And I am sorry for making yours miserable for so long
I hope you read this
And see that I AM TRULY SORRY and I LOVE YOU
I can not speak these words
And make it sound the way it should
Again I'm sorry and I love you
please forgive me
Tamila
