Hapiness depleted

I thought i was in love,
i did all i could to make him happy,
i didn't realize,
it would be the end of me.

i took the test.
disbelieving my own eyes,
i tell him,
his yells over my cries.

he doesn't want this child,
he doesn't want me,
i book the appointment,
even though i disagree.

my soul gone,
my happiness depleted,
i killed my own baby,
i have been defeated.