Here's a little secret I shouldn't tell
take a look under my bed and you'll see hell
You will know the reasons to why I fell
You will know why in the middle of the night I yell
The secret involves me and a blade
in the end, the world will soon fade
Now I'm barely a sick shadow of a healthy me
like a deadly poison I just can't let it be
Don't care about homeworks, don't care about school
all they ever do is make me feel like a fool
Stupid teachers trying to tell me what to do
Hey Losers, I know how to play this game too
I sometimes feel sorry for what I have done
I know I've done wrong and I always start to run
I run away from life, I run away from tears
But it always ends with me drowning in fears
At first I thought it was a nightmare
When I stand in a crowd I feel all bare
I feel exposed with my pain and my memories
My depression isn't one of the happy stories
I made a mistake rolling up my sleeve
letting people see how hurtful this can be
There is only one thing I want on Christmas eve
and that's you loving me for me
As I watch the stars at night
I don't have to fight
I sit in my window sill and cry
Hoping that the pain won't let me die
My body is shivering
My soul is lingering
My lips are twitching
My eyes are bewitching
I see darkness all around
My body feels cold touching the ground
A school bell ringing at far
I wish someone would run me over with a car
