Afraid of myself

The thought of what i might do..
makes me afraid..

The things i almost did...
for your actions..

taking the knife..
puncturing it on my wrist..
but i couldnt do it..

many times ive tried..
from the day he said goodbye
to the next time
you hear me cry...

And i cry everynight
attempting this horrible act..

I'm afraid of myself
afraid of the things i am capable of doing..