My Aching Heart

My heart aches,
It longs for comfort,
For the happiness of an old friend returning to you after a long time,
For the feeling of acceptance of who I am & not who I appear to be,
For the knowledge of another comforting soul who loves me for who I am, not one who loves only a part of me, but all of me

There is an empty feeling in my soul, only faith & love can fix it
I am sorrowed by what I see around me, people pretending to be what they are not,
Why can't people see that pretending gets you nowhere except the beginning?
Can't people see how beautiful they are in their own unique way?
Some will say "tomorrow is just another day"
Why can't they see it is a gift, a gift God has given us?

Is this world not enough?
Why must we be so blind?
Why can't we all just get along?
Why? Why?

Oh, how I long for the courage & strength to get through this life,
So that I may pass peacefully into the next & be with Jesus, in eternal bliss

My heart & soul long for comfort
My heart aches,
There is an empty feeling in my soul,
I long for comfort & love,

I long for someone to come along & recognize the true, gentle spirit that I am,
But a painfully blind ignorance surrounds us all, so that none may see the soul of a person,
Only a few will be given the gift of truly knowing me,
That gift will be given by God,
While I may think I know a few of those people, it is not for me to say

Maybe I should give up,
Give up trying to appeal to the world,
& start living for the Lord,
Continue where I left off in 8th grade,
& not care what others think,

If it means giving up some of my current friends,
So be it.
For I know the Lord will provide me with true friends,

Who will love me as I am,
Who will comfort me when I am sad,
Who will notice when I am feeling down, & do something about it
Who I can trust my life in,

Whoever these special people may be,
I do not know,
But I do know that somebody, somewhere, is a friend,
& that they love me, for me

~Jenna