Cant Control This Feeling

These tears keep streaming down my face
As I stare up at my ceiling
My heart feels like its dying slowly
And I wish I could control this agonizing feeling

You used to make me feel so complete
Though now it seems like I'm nothing to you
I just want to evaporate into thin air
You just don't know what its like..if only you knew

I don't even want to go on
Just curl into a little ball and fade away
Nothing has ever felt this painful
And why does it seem like lately you have nothing to say?

You were supposed to be the person
To make me feel better each day
So tell me why then now
Does it feel like nothing except pain

I used to dream of you in my sleep
And couldn't wait until I heard your voice again
Now it feels like you only make me feel worse
And the more I think about it, I can feel that pounding in my head

I wish my heart would stop beating
And my lungs would stop breathing
That my pulse would stop pumping
And my brain would stop thinking

I thought I was your everything
But I guess I was very wrong
We haven't seen each other in three days
Though why does it feel like its been so long

I guess I'm not your special girl
Or the one that made you smile
Just some average girl who came into your life
That you used to want to stay with for a while

So these tears keep streaming down my face
As I lay here staring up at my ceiling
This pain seems like its going on forever
And no matter what I do, I can't control this feeling...

*This poem goes out to my boyfriend Ernesto Palet..Lately hes been meaner and not that sweet like old times..We've only been together for a month and a week, but he changed after last night..Anyways please rate, vote, and comment if you could. It would mean a lot to me. Thank you for time and consideration. Lots of love.*