Jumbled thoughts

Why is life unfair to some?
The stabbing pains, of love now numb.
For the heart is so used to pain,
It wants something, it cannot gain.
Why is it just me who cries?
'Cause I'm the only one with eyes.
The only thing I cannot get,
Is the only thing I regret.
Wanting.

Death and I walk arm in arm,
For love and death both bring me harm.
The colors are all gone these days,
My sight is made of saddening grays.
And as I walk this trail alone,
Lost and not knowing where I'm going,
I ask myself where'd it go wrong?
The only thing I forgot along.
Was you.

Why is love so hard to know?
Once you get it, it only grows,
To hate and fear and jealousy;
The 4 best friends of eternity.
Why is it just me who cries?
I'm the only one who sees lies,
Love is like a huge and monstrous beast,
Who is hungry and ready to feast,
On my heart.

I felt naked to the whole world,
I locked myself up, in a swirl.
In all the rage, I locked you out,
But left the wanting and the doubt.
We seem to be strangers at heart,
My fears have torn us both apart,
From the love that we used to share.
But was replaced with dark despair,
In my life.

I keep all my feelings inside,
Don't want to show them so I hide,
Then sometimes they just have to show,
Sometimes I just want you to know.
You just don't seem to care for me;
You know not of my hidden pleas.
I can't love you if you don't care,
I cant love you if you're not there,
Anymore.

Life seems okay when you are near,
But stories seem to feed my fear,
And show me my first thoughts were right,
That I could lose my love tonight.
The sun won't set, and will not rise,
When I can't gaze into your eyes.
The rain will stop and wind shall cease,
And hearts no longer know of peace.
My life as I know it is gone.
But to you... it just goes on.