Confused

I'm confused in so many ways
I think about my problems everyday

i sit up at night wondering what to do
And if you really love me too

He's off with his friends and I cry myself to sleep at night
Why do we even fight?

I remember when we met over the Internet and I thought I really knew him
Like when the lights dim

I seen him the first day of school
I got butterflies in my stomach as big as a pool

We had our fights and we made up
My gut tells me to leave him and that I can find better
But I wrote him that letter

I told him this isn't the end and I just wanted to be his friend

My mind says one thing my heart says another
So why even bother

Do I love him?
Does he live me?

God please tell me what to do
because I need to know
So this decision doesn't over power my mind

So help me with this little bind thats tares me up inside