So Tired

Loose the truths I now carry
The responsibility is making me weary
Choose between what I think is right, and wrong
Like picking out words in a mangled song
I hate the lies I know are there
I admit I don't know where

My defense is always up
It's why I jump when I'm touched
I apologies for being so insane
But my two worlds aren't the same

The only constant is my pent up anger
As the world around me just grows stranger
I rarely act on this thought
To do so goes against what I was taught
Instead of acting on this frustration
I look away from their derision

I'm so tired from all this
I keep waiting for another twist
Northing's ever the same
They don't think of what will remain
From all these pushes and back wards pulls
Fighting over me like a tool
I don't know what to do
But stand here like a fool