What If?

I fear the answer.
So, I can't ask the question.
What do I think?
What do I know?

Will it twist the blade?
Will the blood pour?
Will it take the pain?
Will it give me more?

The blade is twisting.
The blood is ready.
I have pain.
I can't take no more.

What if I am wrong?
What if it was all me?
What if I did this?
What if I lost it all?

I will twist the blade.
I will make the blood pour.
I will take the pain.
I will take it some more.

What if I am right?
What if it was true?
What if I didn't do this?
What if I lost it all?

I will twist the blade harder.
I will make the blood flow.
I will take the pain.
I will fill it with more.