Do you?

Do you ever cut yourself
To see the marks it leaves?
I do thatâ??s how I know Iâ??m alive
Itâ??s when I see it bleed.

Do you ever feel the pain
Of a thousand cutting knives?
I do its when you say you feel for me
Then you canâ??t look me in the eyes.

Do you ever sit there and wonder
Why this pain and why me?
I do but I havenâ??t figured it out yet
That answer can not be seen.

Do you ever sit there and wonder
How long this pain will last?
I do but I donâ??t know the answer for that either
But I know itâ??s not just in the past.

Do you ever get frustrated
When people cant understand the way you feel?
I do thatâ??s why for as long as I can
I keep my feelings sealed.

Do you ever wonder what would happen
If you push that knife a little bit harder?
I do every day I try
I push it that little but further.

Do you ever wonder who will care
That day you finally go the whole way?
I do I cant wait to see the look on your face
When you find your the reason Iâ??m dead today.