I hate how people talk shit behide your back. It sucks! You can not trust anyone no more no even yourself. They is alot more to me. They just do not get it..they do not. I hate life sometimes. No one likes me. I can not stand lies anymore. I know I am not pretty so do not tell me I am....it just hurts. I can not cry have to show that I am strong but stand to put this smile on anymore. Everything is falling apart. Everything hurts too much. I can not stand it! It stands inside no more any longer. I want him back! It was not fair to me! I did nothing wrong! I hate it! I am scared alot. I am small and the world is too big. I am just too different from others. No one understands me at all. I do not want the pain anymore. No more! I can feel you but I can not see you anymore just pictures. It almost year now. I just miss you too much. I want you back now! I can not take pain! I just wanna see your face again one more time and hear your vocie again. It sucks your gone. Its just too much sometimes. I just feel out of place sometimes. You do not know how its like to be me. I am on the edge now. Welcome to my life and it sucks. I am stuck inside a world I hate and nothing feels alright. I am just pushed around. I want to be someone eles so bad. No one can save me from my pain. One day I will write a book about life I think. About everything the whole thing. Watch out I am comming out to say my story. It will be called The past of my life. I want to love but, no one wants me anyway I am too ugly. I will share it and its not bullshit. I want to be in love even it hurts in the end. I want someone who cares about me. I am the girl you will never forget or maybe you will. The truth will get you in the end! So hold on its a ride that goes fast!
