Obsession.

She breathes a deep breath to begin-
By then I'm already about to cry
Then she says his name out loud
And I just feel like I could die.

She repeats the words he's said
My heart about withers and sinks
I want to look away from her
But I can't find the courage to blink.

Tears well up and I feel pathetic
They're so close in family relation
How am I supposed to explain myself
When all I feel is frustration?

How do I explain this type of love
When no one ever knew it existed?
How do I portray what's inside of me
When my words are tangled and twisted?

This situation shouldn't still hurt
This mess shouldn't cause so much tension
I haven't had time to deal with his absence
So all I have are unanswered questions.

I'll never be able to tell them
I'll never find the words to assert
That this isn't just some sappy love story
About a girl who's feelings got hurt.

It's an anguish that burns and spasms
Without warning or apprehension
Emotions just surge and erupt
I resort to self-mutilating aggression.

I want to be able to breathe
But this chest is way too compressed
I close my eyes to relieve suffocation
But with this loss, I find I'm obsessed.