-- sorry its so long guys--
â??Hey darl, howâ??s it going?â??
Thatâ??s what I said to him
I donâ??t know what to sayâ?¦
I donâ??t know where to begin.
I guess ill start from the beginning
Seeing as that would be the best place
You are all that I think about
You and your beautiful face
All I ever think about
Is what everything was like
I loved you and you loved me
Now is your love out of sight?
Our relationship is what
Makes my life perfect
But now when I look into your eyes
You seem so different
What has all of a sudden changed
To make you not feel the same
Did I do something wrong?
Am I the one to blame?
I know we have sorted things out
Lots of times before
But this time doesnâ??t feel the same as all the others
Am I still someone that you adore?
I love you like the earth loves the sun
And like God loves us all
But now your feelings have changed
I begin to feel myself fall
Fall into a deep dark hole
One of sadness and depression
Only your love can get me out
You are my obsession
I talk to you with all my heart
To try and figure you out
We talk for hours
Now my head and heart are filled with doubt
With what you said to me
I know things have changed
I donâ??t think I can go through this
Ever again
I love you still
So why donâ??t you love me?
You mean everything to meâ?¦
Canâ??t you see???
This hole is getting deeper and deeper
By the second
Didnâ??t you know I canâ??t live without you?
Or didnâ??t I mention?
You are my breath when I canâ??t breathe
And my warmth when I get cold
We were supposed to be together
Until we got old
But its obvious you donâ??t want to
Come back to me
So I am leaving you and everyone
We were supposed to beâ?¦
I want to tell you that I can hold on
And wait for you to come back
But I canâ??t tell you that
Because I wonâ??t be here if you come back
Tonight I am going to end this pain
These days of heartache are over
I will use this knife to go and see our Lord
There is a better life for me to discover
I call him up
Just to say goodbye
â??What do you mean?â?? he asks
â??I Love you,â?? I reply
I put down my receiver
And go to the kitchen
I get the sharpest knife of all
My walk up to heaven is soon to begin
I go to the bathroom
Look at the picture of us one last time
It was perfect when you loved me
But things have changed this time
I look at you
My eyes begin to fill with tears
Getting old and dieing has always been
One of my greatest fears
But now that everything
Has gone to the shit
My life isnâ??t worth living
So I just want to end it
I kiss your precious face
And put the knife up to my wrist
And with one swift movement
My skin has split
I watch the blood begin to poor
Out of my arm
Now that I am leaving
You can cause me no harm
I hold our picture to my chest
And everything gets blurry
â??I love youâ?? I say one last time
The room is circling
All of a sudden my breathing is back
I feel so alive
But wait what happened?
Did I somehow survive?
I open my eyes to see your crying eyes
You are leaning over me
You are saying something too
â??I love you; I was jut too afraid you see,â??
I put my arms up to hug him
And tell him I am alright
But he doesnâ??t seem to notice
It seems as though I am out of sight
I stand up to see many crying eyes
I realize it isnâ??t just him here
I look down to where I was
And I am still laying there
See I am at my funeral
Watching what I left behind
I didnâ??t realize I was so loved
Maybe I shouldnâ??t have listened to my mind
â??I love you and always willâ??
I whisper in his ear
He looked around to see who talked to him
Looked at my body and said â??I love you too dear,â??
