One year today

It has been a year now,
one year since i fell for you,
one year that changed everything,
and still no words I love you to

maybe thats cause i havent told you,
and maybe you do really love me,
but i dont get my hopes up,
cause if i did then my heart would be free.

free for you to play around with,
free for you to brake,
most of all that would hurt,
would be our friendship at stake.

we are best friends,
that is always how it has always been,
even in our worst of times,
we both have always seen.

today i will speak out,
because if you dont love me too,
what are you worth,
what are you to me if your not my boo.

but thats just it,
you are not mine,
and i still love you,
and Im not fine.

i cry all night,
and then all day,
i cant sleep or eat,
Im in a terrible way.

but i love you,
your everything to me,
that is all that should matter,
thats the way things should be.

so i will tell you,
and i will face your reaction,
i will cry my tears,
because of your rejection.