Does it make you stronger when you see me cry?
Does it fill you up with happiness when I bleed from the pain?
I can see you laughing at me silently,
Time and time again.
Do you never think to save me,
From this hell I built myself?
Don't you ever want to help,
To break down the walls I've built?
Cant you see the pain you put me through,
The agony that is taking over my fragile heart,
The love, it keeps me going strong,
Though it still tears me right apart.
I always have to wait alone,
Fighting myself through the dark,
Can feel my pain bleeding out,
I should of stopped from the very start.
You seem to laugh at the ways I suffer,
It's not a joke, though you laugh like it is,
I never asked to be so afraid of myself,
I never asked to be like this.
I didn't intend to become what I have,
I don't want to count the tears I've cried,
They're all muddled into the river of pain,
And it will never dry out, even if it tried.
