Deep Inside;Where the Bullet Lies

Stop all the yelling, why is it so loud?
I cant stand your voice, your sound
I cry and cry, because I try and try
but you, you dont care for my love
I guess Ill never be enough

ive known you for five years
and still, its you that I fear
why cant you see?
that you are suffocating me

standing here, as if im naked
this feeling, i can no longer take it
I cant hide the scars, and fake it
waited long enough to make it
youve beaten me, and kept me bound
I still lay, in the same place I was found
a dark dark place, where I cant feel the blood stained tears on my face

I want to hold on so bad
gave you everything, its sad
that now
I have to let go, of something i never had

someday I keep pretending, that youll finally apprieate me
for me to not feel so alone
for you to set me free
and let me be

release my heart, pick up the pieces that have fallen apart
let go of my soul, and make me whole
replace your hearsh words, with a kiss
that will be the last thing i miss
where all along, I should go where I belong
somewhere where I can finally feel the love, feel the light shinning above

as you trip me, and I fall
you love to watch me crawl
cant make it through
feel my pain, if only you knew
its amazing, that i still love you
I live for the day, for the words youll finally say
I live for the day, where you wont walk away
I live for the day, when you will hold me and stay

you make me think of sucide
for me to run and hide
you make me feel like tiny needles digging into me all over
everyday, this is how i suffer
you make me want to grab the blade
and watch as my life fades away
you make me want to break glass
and watch my arm be thrashed
watch the blood drip and drip
as my life happily slips and slips

do you hear what Im speaking
is it my pain, your seeking
do you finally come to realize
that your still everything in my eyes
I reach for the gun
and say to you,if only you knew, that you were my only one

on shot to the head
and all the while, I can see you smile
I drop the floor, and you laugh as Im finally dead

~This is a poem to my best guy friend. We are having problems right now, and I wish I could tell him, that this is how he makes me feel. Plz comment, it would mean alot to me~