Honestly (It's Over)

You and I, we've spent so much time together.
You stuck with me no matter the type of weather.
So me, umbrella-less and without a clue,
I took a chance and leaned on you.
You're the only person I've ever wanted to save.
But I'm the one who continually caves,
I can't take the pressure of your life.
I'm as flimsy as a plastic butter knife.
I hate how I'm never really there for you,
And how I criticize everything you do,
And the way it hurts me so much inside
To push you away to your better life.
I'm tired of hating myself for loving you
And doing everything I can for you
Without showing it on the outside of me and you
And feeling like there's nothing left for me after you.
I'm so sorry for all the times I've broke your heart,
The once-whole organ now torn apart.
I'm not asking for you to love me now
I just want to you to know the why and how.

You're still the only person I've ever really wanted to save.
I just want to tell you sorry for everything I never gave.

(C) Samantha Tulgetske