I lie awake at night,
Afraid to fall asleep,
I listen to the raindrops,
That land softly on the roof,
My eyes slowly close,
To see your face,
Imprinted on my mind,
My thoughts soar away to you,
Where ever you may be,
You are all around me,
Day after day,
Night after night,
You haunt my every moment,
You left so long ago,
But yet, you're still here,
Every tear I cry,
Is a small piece of you,
Your memory lives on,
It's made a home in me,
I miss the feeling,
Of your touch,
It's just not fair,
Why you? Why me?
I used to be so happy,
But since you've been gone,
My heart knows no joy,
I'm no longer myself,
You were my other half,
You filled me with happiness and love,
Now i'm just an empty hole,
I have no feelings,
I just don't care,
I feel left behind,
I was betrayed,
How did I deserve this?
What did I do wrong?
There's no mistake,
One can commit,
To be sentenced to a life like this,
A life filled with grief,
Accompanied by regret,
Side-by-side with pain,
And unmeasurable saddness,
You were too good to go,
Too young to die,
You were meant to be by my side,
Now there's a vacant seat,
Reserved for you,
For the rest of my life,
That's how it will stay,
I'm keeping it open,
It's always saved,
Never will you show up,
Kiss me on my lips,
And apologize for being late,
You left me here,
I sit and wait,
For God to say,
It's my turn,
And I'll approach those pearly gates,
But until my time comes,
I'll be awake,
Afraid to fall asleep,
I don't want to miss my chance,
To touch your face,
And finally tell you,
What I should have said,
Before you were taken away from me,
Because I don't know how to be me,
With you it was "we",
I never had to think about me,
I don't know who I am,
I went from being so on track,
To feeling so lost,
All within seconds,
Of that heart breaking phone call,
When I heard the words,
That you had died,
My world stopped spinning,
My heart made it's final beat,
I couldn't breath,
My body went weak,
But what I really want you to know,
Is what I meant to say,
I was waiting for the right moment,
Not knowing my time with you,
Was about to end,
So here it is,
I love you,
And when my judgement day comes,
I hope to find you just inside those holy doors,
Then I will show you,
How it was supposed to end,
I miss you my love,
You're in my heart forever,
Never will your soul depart.
