No Release

Sunken deep
my eyes will weep
the reddest tears
of sheer pity.

Pity for myself
how I hate this
how I've dealt
is of no meaning
what I have become
is of no importance.

Everything I hate
has centered in me
maybe it was fate
I can't believe in what is to be.

Living with these changes
is darker than death
this emptiness I feel
is a danger to my health.

I am worthless.
I am a lost cause.
I deserve nothing
but pain
and tears.

Faking this
is not easy.
A moment of bliss
does not come naturally.

Lost
confused
deranged
damned
to this life
a life I hate
a life I built
my fate
is shown.

Reality
has slipped
Sanity
was ripped
all away
away from me.

I'm falling deeper
I lost everything.
I made my mistakes
death will bring
no release.