I Miss You

**This poem is dedicated to my cousin Ally Nicole Murdock...she was one of my best friends. She died a few years ago while I was in the 8th grade and this is a poem I wrote my 9th grade summer. I hope you can feel what I went through by reading it.**

It seems like it was yesterday
when you were here by my side,
But I realize that's impossible
From all the tears I've cried.

I remember so well the day
You decided to leave this world
You just have no idea
How much I miss you girl.

So many memories keep
running through my mind...
I never thought about what I'd do
if we ran out of time.

It has been almost two years now
since the day you died...
I have got to move on somehow
so I'll use the Lord as my guide.

November 1st was the terrible day
I realized you were gone,
I prayed to God that you would stay
but He thought it was time to "come home."

If I could go back to Holloween
and knew with you it'd be my last day,
I'd make sure you knew how I felt
And here are some of the things I'd say:

-I'd tell you how much I love you
and how much I cared,
Then we'd laugh and reminisce about
Those memories we shared.

I'd tell you how important you are
and how much you mean to me,
Then we'd listen to our music
and go watch some B.E.T...-

Those are things I took for granted,
but then I didn't know
That I'd only see you one last time
Before you would have to go.

I remember at the funeral home
When I read your death certificate,
My eyes just could not conceive...
Those words I will never forget...

Reality hit when I took it in..
It said: "Cause of Death: Suicide"...
I just couldn't handle it...
Tears started falling from my eyes.

You had such a fortunate and
blessed future ahead of you...
You were young, gorgeous
and so intelligent too.

I know you didn't mean to do
exactly what you did...
You were trying to prove a point,
but you were just a kid.

...Sometimes it's hard feeling so much pain
and I don't know what to do,
The tears start falling down like rain
at night when I think of you.

God....you were just so young,
Only at age eleven...
But it brings so much joy to my heart
To know I'll see you in heaven.

I'll never say a last goodbye..
It's something I can not do.
It doesn't matter how hard I try..
I'll always be missin you.

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~R.I.P Ally Nicole Murdock~
~October 25, 1991-November 1, 2002~