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by cassie144 Mar 31, 2006 category : Sadness, depression / about depression
I think that i have given up on all that i believed i think that i have lost all hope and all that i received i think this is the end for me i cant live another day my mind and thoughts are all messed up Ive gotten here someway i no longer no my feelings i cant figure out my thoughts i don't know what I'm thinking i forget what Ive been taught suicide was stuck in my head but id never do that deed my life has certainly gone wrong i realize that when i bleed my next thought was to get high or stoned so i couldn't feel but when i tried those things every thing felt so unreal my friends don't even see the pain inside i bare but to most I'm invisible so happiness is the mask i wear i know that i have given up i can feel it deep within i cant control my mind no more another battle i cease to win