Look at my soul

Look at my soul
what does it say?
does it say my life will be ok
does it say what will be lost and what will be found
I'm tired of promises that people don't keep
and I'm tired of my lock of sleep
but my tears keep me up at night
i just want things to be alright
i want to tell them i want them to see
to love and accept me for me
i want to show them how i feel
i want them to see the me thats real
I'm tired of crying and caring what they think
I'm loosing this battle on about to sink
for all the people in my life who really care
there is only one who is always there
when I'm at my lowest point
there is no helping hand
you don't feel my pain when I'm already low
and each harsh word is just another blow
but you make me feel like I'm useless
to you
but i have thought and feeling too
i would never ever tell it to your face
because to you I'm nothing but a big disgrace
so know i put it into words but another thought has just accrued
at the point if you see this i don't care
as a matter of fact i hope I'm there
i want to scream and yell at you
because these are my feelings that are true
so when your done reading this art
i hope you see i actually quite smart
but until the day i make you see the only thing i can be is me
look at my soul
what does it say?
because this is the real me day after day