Colours make a picture

The night feels so draining
cant describe how i feel
its a mixture of blues and greens
just a blur that isn't real
tears are swelling up in my eyes
my throat is tight
my lips Begin to tremble
the moment seems far from right
i feel so disgusting
like I'm not worthy to be here
i feel like I'm being judged
my worst and biggest fear
the blur becomes reality
and i see my self standing bare
stripped of dignity
with nothing else to spare
my face is tear stained
my body is starved so thin
i look so depressed, yet pretty
my distraught image is a sin
cuts surround my body
carved so harsh and deep
dripping with bloody pain
I'm falling as i tremble and weep
the colours begin to appear
an the image merges into a swirl
a unclear picture
of a lost and desperate little girl