When your whole life
falls in front of you
and you can\='t tell which
parts were good,
what you controled,
who you really loved,
what do you do?
Because, God damn,
I'm so confused.
Who was I when I was with you?
I'm me now
because I know
what I'm feeling and I care
if I'm happy.
I'm not spending every second
on someone else's well being.
I like who I am.
I like looking around knowing,
yeah, this is how everything's supposed to be.
But, when I was with you
it was always,
'should I have said that?'
'should I just hold this in?'
'does anyone even care?'.
I have people who care now.
Everyone around me smiles when I smile.
They cry when I cry.
I look back and wonder,
did it even matter back then?
If I had left my heart on my sleeve
for everyone to see
would they have tried as hard
to take it away?
I know if I had just told you
that I loved you,
you wouldn't have believed it
because I know I sure didn't.
I don't love you anymore.
Not like that.
And I know who I am.
I'm me and, right now,
that's all I need to be.
