My best friend...Do You?

What if I was to die tonight?
Would you even notice?
Would you even care?
Or would you other friends come first?

You say no one will get away with making your friends cry
Well I guess I don't count
I sometimes think I'd be better off if I die ( NOT saying I will...but some people will like it better that way)
No one stands up for me, and I sure wish you could

There are COUNTLESS times when I've worried about you
I couldn't concentrate or do anything
I've tried countless times to bring you through, it never works
But you can be with her for 2 minutes and you're fine

I know you don't mean it
But when you said you had a better friend than me
Do you know how much that hurt?
But I guess that's what I get for having an online friendship, huh?
I'll never be good as your other friends, no matter how much I try

I've been very insecure in the past
All I need is someone to hold me and tell me everything will be ok
Out of all your friends I guess I'm last
Because I'm obviously not that important

I've tried so hard not to let certain things bother me
Because you are far away and have other friends
But I really wish I could somehow make you see
How much I need you to be my best friend

I have tried for so long
And have continually failed
At being so strong
And not let anything get to me

I don't have a problem with all of this
But I sometimes feel LEFT OUT of your mind, FORGOTTEN
Sometimes it feels like you're dissing me
And I find out later you weren't, you were doing something for, or with your friends

I really hope that one day we'll meet
And maybe you can rescue me from this
Possibly stand up for me
And for once, show these people someone actually cares

So I hope you aren't mad, angery, or hurt with me
I'm trying to hard to make everything right
And I'm trying to make you see
That I don't care how many friends you have, just don't forget about me, when you have way better friends than me

So for now I want you to know
Roses are red
Violets are blue
You're my best friend
And I'll ALWAYS love you

Remember you're my best friend
And my importantly my sister
My heart, mind, and hand are always here to lend
We've been so close, I don't care how far apart we are...
Do you?

* I don't feel like this at all anymore...I was just going through a tough time..and this was a piece of my work...so I just thought I'd post it. I hope you like it! Bye!*