So confused

What im feeling right now is so hard to explain
i miss him so much and my heart is in pain
i love him, with almost all of my heart
and i dont know why but someone else has the other part

im not cheating i swear that im not
but i do admit my eye has been caught
ive liked this other guy before i was even taken
and now my feelings for both are completely shaken

i like them both the same
i love them both to death
for both of these boys
i would give my last breath

it does make it easier
since he is just my friend
i can hide my true feelings
and just play pretend

but my best friend knows it
i told him once before
and he asked me the question
\"well who do you like more?\"

i wish i could answer that question
but i just dont know
i love them both and dont want
either of them to go

i would be with him now
but he never did ask
i was told that he liked me
but the opportunity has passed.

sometimes i wish i could turn back time
but at the same time im happy with what\'s mine

i see them both every single solitary day
and to myself i sometimes say
about him
\"i wonder what could have been\"